Getting tired

I am so tired of feeling like I may just have a grasp on things and when I do everything slips out of my hands and goes haywire. I have been trying like hell to get my life back together since everything fell apart last year and it seems like the harder I try it seems as though it never goes anyway and everywhere I turn people just want to stick a knife in your back when you least expect it. I guess because the economy is bad people just expect you to take it and swallow it and not do anything about it. The way that I feel about it anymore is that I have taken enough of that crap for 33 years and last November something happened to me and I decided that I will take no more of that. I guess that when people treat you like that and then feel that they can get away with shit like that then they will do to someone else well that is fine let them screw someone else over but please with sugar on top leave me the fuck alone and keep your bullshit out of my life I want no part of it. People even try that shit with me and I swear to god you had better hope that I do not have something that I cannot use against you that will not hurt your ass in the long run because if it does your ass will be grass and I will be the lawn mower. I am really frustrated with job hunting I mean really over 500+ applications and interviews and either nothing or no phone calls, the competition is really steep. I swear I may just have to bite the bullet and have someone professionally write my resume for me I don't know that is really expensive and I really cannot afford it right now but I may not have a choice at this point desperate times calls for desperate measures and at this point I am pretty frickin desperate and I really need to do something. I have tried everything and that is the only that I have not tried and I may have to do it because the only paycheck that I have seen in the last couple of months is for $300.00 and that was for 4 days of work and this really sucks I need a job and SOON! I really wish that god would hear my prayers and answer them as he could tell the temp agency thing was a wash and I really need his help and SOON and if he could hear me at all I know that he could help and know that I am struggling and also know that I cannot take much more time without a paycheck.